It has been an emotional and challenging rookie year, but I made it to my first winter break as a high school Assistant Principal.
Among my many notable experiences so far:
- a gaffe that landed us some unwanted local and national media attention, and elicited painful accusations of racism
- a post-election community event that included about a dozen community organizations, a dozen immigration and civil rights lawyers, and a few city leaders
- a handful of uncomfortable conversations with colleagues around performance
- struggling to gain traction with our school’s intervention team
- learning about our district’s $74 million projected budget shortfall and the tenuous employment status of the district’s many new employees, including my own
I am savoring this opportunity to reflect on the ups-and-downs of the still new school year, because there are so few opportunities to stop and think. Leaders in public education often preach the value of reflection and its invaluable role in improving practice system wide, but I have found it nearly impossible to put their advice to practice during the normal ebb and flow of the regular school day. Thankfully, winter break affords everyone the elusive chance to reflect.
Of particular interest to me right now is how I understand the nature of my job. There are some who believe the school leader should model their work after business executives, who maintain a results-oriented culture. Others find the school-leader-as-doctor model more compelling, particularly for the emphasis it places on promoting healing and wellness.
While both capture important and often overlooked functions of the role, I don’t think either capture what I aspire to in my work. My vocation is to shepherd, to lead and guide, and provide care. I fight for a more just world, and do everything I can to ensure that everyone within my fold – students and staff alike – have what they need to thrive. My job is to help people believe that a better future is possible, and to know how to wield the tools to make it so.
That’s why I find it most helpful to think of my work as pastoral.